THIS MEANS W.A.R. (WOMAN AT REST)
I remember that day a few short years ago when I began to think about the fight. I was thinking long and hard about the struggles of everyday life. Everyday cares seemed to grip and grab, poke and prod, dig and drag, stick and stab! OH MY.... I was so tired. I had been FIGHTING for such a very long time. Remembering things that i thought I'd suppressed well enough that they would never hinder me again.
You know what I'm talking about. When you have been beaten, molested, called weird, fat, ugly, broke and all that other good stuff. Yep..... I am that perfect "GUMBO"! You see sometimes it takes the most eclectic mix of spices to get that yummy essence that's needed to satiate the appetite of change. It was time for me to recall those things, acknowledge them and fight! Oh yes, this inner city girl has some fight in her. She tried to run to the suburbs only to realize that the suppressed issues... OH THEY WOULD COME BACK. You can sweep the house clean....and if you are not careful..... there will be and inundation of all that old mess, new mess and so much more.
THE COMPOUND....
It happened, little by little...everything that took place and was supposedly dropped, hidden and buried, It began to add up immeasurably! Thirty plus years of issues, they compounded daily, WHEW...it was massive! I mean mountains and mountains with no shovels, no chisels, no hammers, not a thing to help me dig out! Nothing!!!
Guess what?
It happens.
Does it mean that you are not qualified? Does it mean that you negated the necessities of change? NO, what it means is that you have value. It means that you have tremendous worth. It simply means that you have misdirected the truth about you; and now it is time to allow what's right to pile up just as high as the what's wrong.
Now ask yourself this.... HOW can something oh so wrong be oh so right?
THE COMPETITION
Size it up! Did you realize that you are alive today? Did you recognize that if your eyes are gazing on this you are not just a fighter. You are now ready for your next phase. Now, take a look again. Yes, right where you are, take a look to your left, now peer to the right. If you know what I know and you see what I see... THERE IS NONE! You have been your own competition all along! You have been fighting your own fears, insecurities, baggage and disbeliefs long enough.
Now, All YOU have to do is BELIEVE & KNOW!
THE WAR
It 's one thing to fight, but it is a whole 'nother thing to W.A.R.
Normally in a FIGHT, it's you squared against another contender. One that you can see. The fight is when the school bell rings, things have been discussed and you almost know what you are coming up against. In a fight, you prove your point and you are off. In some cases, after the fight, you shake hands with the opponent and it becomes a done deal. The victor lifts his hands in glory, grabs the belt of significance and its a wrap.
In WAR, things go a little differently. There is a whole army of things, people, places and issues. The definition of WAR /wòr/ 1. a state of armed conflict between different nations or states or different groups within a nation or state.
You must remove yourself and DECLARE. Declare WAR on the enemy. Declare War on the situations that you have housed internally. Those things that seem to reappear at the most inconvenient time. You have to strategize, you have to step out of your own situation, size up your enemy and take hold of your arsenal. Grab Your ammunition, contemplate and fire!
It is time for you to take your position as a Woman At Rest! (W.A.R.)