Go Back
Wow... GO BACK! I can think of countless times that many people have told me not to go back. Relationship woes, don't you dare go back! Bad service, I won't go back! Botched Hair appointment, ain't no way I'm going back! Ha!!! Soooo many choices, so much to pick from.... Why in the world would I do that again? Well, in the last few days what I can say is.... it's because He said so! Who is He you ask?
He is the Highest Power, Our Heavenly Father, The Lord and some may even say the Universe. I say, He is that He is! Just a couple days ago while messaging my God Sis/Cousin, she began to share about Consistency. Isn't it amazing how many ideas you had? The things that you started and for some odd reason.... you just let it go. Yikes. Why is it that we do things like that. When we have the thought initially, we are running like the wind. We are super excited and boy oh boy.... moving full steam ahead. Even have the nerve to tell some folk, write the general idea and Boom Bip Pow.... as soon as it seems that nothing is coming of it, the support seem dismal, one day.... we wake up and it's like it never happened. It is as if, there was never any thought, Never the dried ink from the Bic or a vague vapor, that simply dissipated into the atmosphere.
People watching you in your moments of excitement. Hey ya'll, I've got a shiny new ball! However, once the luster leaves, I'm on to the next! Disappointment sets in as we quit right before the big bang. Right there at the gate, ready to burst through and now.... something has changed. Could it be that we are looking into what others may think as opposed to what we know deep down on the inside? Could it be that God wanted us to stop focusing on them and realize what HE? Wow,
Am I doing this for Him or.... was it for the pomp and circumstance? Was it for the applause and accolades of my peers or am I that damaged that I am awaiting the pat on the back from someone who will never support, never share or..... listen at this. WHO NEVER REALLY GENUINELY CARED ANY HOW!!!
Makes me question my (the) passion. Is fly by night zeal just a stumbling block. Is zeal sometimes a hinderance to keep us from finally bursting through the proverbial place of true blessings?
Tonight I am typing just as it comes to mind. Tired of being what people think and ready to soar in my..... Truth! I'm done with that stuff..... what they think, why they think it and who thunk what... (ya'll know how I get)
Did you ever really get the memo? You know the memo of who you really are? The same memo that highlights who you are outside of that box. That box that you hopped in projecting yourself in an audience of those who will never comprehend how amazingly fabulous you are. The box with tight walls...surrounded by nothing, losing it all.... for the sake of what??
Hmmmm. I believe it's time to go back. Pick up some of those things that you had put down. Picking up the masterpiece and being so proud of it that you could care less what anyone or anything has to mumble. Dig in that drawer sis. Find yourself in the den of paper that houses that thing!!!
Go Back.... Pick it up! It is time to finish! I'm not leaving my cards on the table....
GO BACK, FIND IT & MAKE IT HAPPEN