Convict-(ed)

Lord.....

Can I ask you a question? Can I be frank and honest with you? Lord, you know my heart so you know how I'm feeling even as I write this very "talk" to you. Lord, I woke up this morning feeling like a convict. Like someone who has robbed "someone".... your word asks this question.. "Will a man rob God?".... URGHHHH.....  

...silence.... 

But Lord, I thought....

I realize what happened... I realize what's happening..... I just realize!

There was a seed, it was placed in the soil, and now... something is blossoming. Lord, we talked about this. There has been something nudging me and tugging me to access my more. My prayers have changed, my thoughts are different and on top of that.... I've been feeling all marshmallowy regarding my upcoming birthday. Something about this 44th year lining up with the "8" has me truly believing that a "NEW BEGINNING" is surfacing quickly. 

Lord, I've made all kinds of decisions that have not come easily. I am standing in/on faith and the words that you have spoken so beautifully to my spirit. Lord..... there was a question asked and I answered. Even tried to skate around in my justification and you had me to clean it up. Accountability... yes Father, that was the part that really made me think. That was the part that still has me thinking....

I even had a dream about it.... it was so real. So much was going on. Did I fit in? Did I say the right thing? Can I even handle it? Wow...... Feeling like a convict.... Being convicted of some things that I have the ability to change. Being convicted of years of bondage. Bondage to thoughts of ...humph...... Can I? Should I? Where? Who? When?.. Wow... even How! (I guess like always, He'll bring that to fruition) 

Yes, basic everyday thoughts! I think about a word that was dropped in my spirit at the end of  2017. That word being "FLOW"..... I didn't know what to think at that time. I just knew that the word was good. I must flow in the things designed perfectly for me.

I wish that I could share a little more about the seeds. I wish that I could share a little more regarding when the seeds were deposited. I can tell you that on this day, I feel a blossom. One that comes about because you've been convicted, Convicted to purpose.

The doors are being opened, doors that no man can shut. The doors that have been waiting. Waiting for the right moment, the right hour, the right..... Ultimately waiting on me!

I've realized on this morning that being Convicted is not always a bad thing. Being Convicted is a God thing! 

THIS TIMING IS RIGHT! Now Be Free.....

Just as the seed was deposited....

*giving more.... seed time and harvest...