KEEPING IT REAL

How much more can one share…. I just want to KEEP IT REAL!

Driving home and my spirit begins to speak regarding the things that have halted, stopped and hindered me from doing so much. Doing the very things that I have been created to do.

How crazy is that?

I’ve had dreams.

I’ve had that intuition thing. That “something said”…

I’ve had visions.

I even had the surefire prophetic word…. (you know the kind where you end up snotting and and rolling all over the floor)….. that fire word that is confirmed way deep down in your toes, sprouts up through them thighs, hits that belly, jumps in that throat and causes you to yell in anticipation of what you can NOW see.

As I’m listening to me, I realize that everything that popped in my mind stemmed around what I thought about what they thought and what I “chose to decide” based on ????

WHO KNOWS WHAT! I’m sure it was all $%#@&

I QUIT BECAUSE

I didn't think they would join
I didn't think I was loved
I didn't think they believed in me
I didn't think they benefited
I didn't think I was worthy
I didn't think I had enough to offer
I didn't think they cared that much
I didn't think ....

What?

Yikes, That was a crazy sentence to type.

I can’t believe the Audacity of me to allow those thoughts, feelings and emotions to creep into my mind. HOW DARE I? I mean, TBH (as the kids say)… I guess I allowed that mess to seep into my heart. Have I secretly been speaking out of my mouth this? You know that OUT OF THE ABUNDANCE OF THE HEART THE MOUTH SPEAKS! Have I allowed my actions to show that I had forgotten the FAITH and the task to DO IT ANYHOW?

Who’s strength was i operating with?

What an amazing God that I serve! Shaking my big ole head! #blah

He wouldn’t let me sleep. He began to wrestle with me and you better believe he won. I might have a little limp…but I’ve still got a chance!

I’ll simply call my limp a bop. Address it face forward and lean with it, rock with it!

I’ll pick up the task and get to rolling. I am so thankful that the door has not shut!

I just want to KEEP IT REAL…

I STARTED AGAIN... BECAUSE I KNOW!